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Topic: Consciousness & Awareness

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Without Illusory Choice: Belonging to Dark Matter Sexuality

March 12, 2022

“In the vertical, be without choice. What that really means is you’re left without choice on the level of your will, without choice in any kind of individuality that you’re familiar with.”   Being exclusively the vertical; without illusory choice You came to be…

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A Zoom Café Conversation – March 12, 2022

March 12, 2022

“There’s only one way: you need to dive-bomb into that tiny little bit – the whole of you.”   Dive-bomb into the deep; effort engages the familiar Landslide givenness; vaporizing and condensating Vertical conversation: be exclusive, not inclusive Concerning the deep, interest is an…

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The Deep Vertical Now: Your Only Future


March 12, 2022

“Give all of your trust to whatever tiny little bit of clarity right there in the vertical now. You don’t have anything else. There isn’t anything else.”   Dialogue One Living and walking the narrowest path changes your life Intention is lived organically from…

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The Evolution of Consciousness

March 7, 2022

“A sphere of consciousness aware, given a wonderful but impossible body. The body’s perfectly limiting, perfectly confining, making real impossibility, but not for what is invited, clean and in direct response.”   The embodiment of meaning without an object The denser it becomes, the…

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A Zoom Café Conversation – March 6, 2022

March 6, 2022

“The dissolve of all trauma isn’t through the deeper levels of your being. It’s through the initial levels. You turning into the feminine principle. The loss of identifying with self power is the dissolve of trauma.”   Power and the feminine and masculine principles…

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Your Return to Nothing: Consciousness Freed Into Every Level of Your Existence

March 6, 2022

“With each dissolve at a fundamental level of awareness, awareness has mobility to each life that is previous, until ultimately it’s able to be the whole.”   The purity of life comes from and is animated by being Access to the origin comes by…

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The End of Splintered Awareness: Relating to Intimate Connectivity 


March 5, 2022

“Splintered awareness relates to being its own. Real individuality has no sense of its own. It can’t relate to its own. It relates to intimate connectivity.”   Real individuality is love that has a face Intimacy and the primary and secondary levels of the…

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A Zoom Café Conversation – March 5, 2022

March 5, 2022

“A deeper level clarity is perspective that comes from your being, or before, manifested in your self. It can’t be bought or persuaded.”   Being the direct; where oneness is the “I am” Levels of embodiment impact the self differently The difference between lying…

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Cessation of Your Self and Life-Light: Waking Up From Your Dream Life

March 5, 2022

“If you have a relationship to the world outside and inside, your self existence has you. If you derive meaning from the world, negative or positive, your self existence has you.”   Differentiate between your real existence and your life Stripped of your self…

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JdR Podcast 461

Liquid Intimacy: The Flow of Consciousness In Form

March 4, 2022

What does John mean when he refers to consciousness as “liquid intimacy?” This conversation takes us deep inside the traps and opportunities for consciousness to realize itself in the context of form, the only place it can happen.

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The Dissolution of Levels and Levels of the Real: Returning to the Nothing that is Everything

February 28, 2022

“It’s about you being what you directly know, and it makes no difference how big that is or how small that is. All that matters is how completely you’re given to what you know. There isn’t anything else.”   Returning to the purest: love…

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The End of Your Splintered Consciousness: Living Being What You Came Here For

February 27, 2022

“That which returns, because of the apparent impossibility, because of returning despite even a splintered consciousness falsely influencing, makes you more than what you were.”   Awareness relaxed and consciousness: both levels of the I Consciousness is what makes you what you are Returning…

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