Q: The last time we spoke, at the end of our connection it was a little touch of a place inside that I recognized. That touch brought me back to the first time I entered that place when I was very young. I know it’s where I come from, I think I just need a little push.

John: Digging out your own well means that you are going after the heart of meaning. That means that the heart of meaning means more to you than all of your relationships, means more to you than your self, your mind, the world; means more to you than all you have, for without being right inside of the heart of meaning, there is no real meaning. Without coming to the heart of meaning, you can’t see. In that, all of the outward processes of assessment are unreliable. All you have is not your mind, not your will, none of your beliefs. All you have is your deepest, most quiet interior where you realize what real knowledge is and that real knowledge isn’t something that you can learn.

Only openness and softness can enter real knowledge. Need is already blind. Want is already blind. You digging out your own well, ridding your interior of ill-necessity is you coming to what you really are without the use of your self, without the assistance of any fear, any fear of what you come to within of what might be the truth, without any hope of what you would like the truth to be. All you have is that you are open to directly know.

What that means is that even in the surface of your life you won’t be believing anything that you don’t know. You won’t believe anything anymore just because you can; that you won’t shortcut in having anything inside. You will fast lose all of your worldly values. They will lose their voice in you. Then you’ll be losing your self values. Your self will no longer have voice in you. So you’ll come to be, in all of your interior, warmly, quietly nobody and nothing.

Your interior, to be whole, needs no past or present construction: just you at rest, gentled and quieted in the face of absolutely anything. The more free space there is within, the more love there is. Love doesn’t compete for anything.

As you dig out your own well, you come to authentic seeing. It won’t fit with any current outward mind. Everything is reduced to how deeply and directly you actually know anything.

Q: The space where I went when I was young was real and it was home.

John: Then you’ll be without anything that speaks otherwise. It’s a whole different level of knowledge. When you were little, no one gave that to you; you didn’t learn it. It’s what you were. For that to have all of your life you will lose your life as you’ve known it. You won’t be moved fundamentally by ordinary processes, familiar or popular processes. You’ll be like the salmon going upstream against all odds. In the perception of others you’ll be paying some very high costs, but what you come to is just clear.

All that will remain is not even love, but you being the quietude of love.