Q: When you talked about honesty towards what I know, I realized I’ve been playing it safe all along. I’ve had opportunities and I fell back. Ten years ago you said that I was on the verge of becoming what I was born to be and there was a shift, but I know I held back. I keep hearing what you’re saying and I know that it’s true. It’s not belief. It’s just clear and I still go on doing the same thing.
John: That will be all gone after you’ve died.
Q: So this is really about dying.
John: And letting live what you know isn’t going to die.
Q: It’s as easy as that?
John: It’s as simple as that. Living that will bring you into great difficulty, and none of it is too much.
Q: The thing is that I do know that.
John: Living that means that you live growing up.
Q: Letting go of the childhood tantrums.
John: Being and doing what you know in your heart consistently, regardless of what that feels like in your self. You being like that in the midst of any part of your self that isn’t like that yet isn’t going to feel good. It just simply is good.
Q: I’ve just seen that it’s belief that what is good is uncomfortable, but it is not that, is it? It’s what you just said.
John: What you know is good has no opposite. Nothing exists on its own outside of goodness. Anything that isn’t goodness, that simply relaxes, returns to goodness. It’s what occurs in you when you die. You perfectly return to what you were able to be all along.
When awareness does that while in a body, awareness evolves. When awareness doesn’t do that while in a body, the opportunity to evolve while in a body passes away. It is what you are in a body for. It’s contrary only to what you experience in your self.
The value of awareness evolving while it is in a body exceeds any perceived value of pain relief, regardless of what that experience is. That truth is absolute. It’s equally true in anyone, anywhere.
The integration of pain and pleasure is in awareness evolving in it. The integration of pain and pleasure is not in what you do with pain or pleasure. It isn’t even about the pain or the pleasure. What you really are is only all about what you really are in the midst of anything.
Nothing can distract you from that. No one can distract you from that. Your experiences can’t distract you from that. Your body can’t distract you from that. The only thing that can distract you is if distraction of any kind, painful or pleasurable, serves you. Distraction exists only if illusion serves you.
Awareness in a body has the power to make real in a body what is not real. What that power comes from is the power that awareness has in a body to make its own being real and physical in its body. Nothing else accomplishes the evolution of awareness in a body.
You have a body so that you can configure your nervous system to your being, but you’re able to configure your nervous system to anything that you need to be true or wish to be true. You’re able to configure your nervous system to something that isn’t even real; you’re able to configure it to an illusion. Whatever you configure your nervous system to, your self becomes. That works for better or for worse.
Whatever your nervous system is configured to, your nervous system belongs to pure you; it belongs to oneness, whether you give it to that or keep it from that. You have a nervous system so that pure you and oneness can have a nervous system. Oneness is at home within any nervous system, regardless of what made it what it is.
512 – Integrating Spirituality: Walking the Walk
The experience of emptiness and openness on the path of integration can feel like a no-man’s land. John explains why that is, how to avoid a spiritual ego, and what to trust … even if you feel like a fool.
511 – The Making of A New Self
The sense of having nothing to hold onto allows a moment of communion, an experience of being. John explains when holding has value and when it is merely conditioning, coming between us and what we really are.
510 – Removing the Veils of Illusion: The Unseen Made Seen, Through You
This conversation takes us on a journey beyond our seen reality into unseen realms within, and John describes the subtle veils that separate us from being the love that we most deeply are.
509 – Bonds of Being
In this detailed and at times humorous dialogue, John reveals the magical bonds of being that occur when one spectrum of consciousness encounters another.
507 – Finding Clarity When You Don’t Know What to Do
Feeling weak, tired and caught in waves of uncertainty about what to do – does something need to change? A conversation showing the deep healing and clarity that comes from adding warmth to the discomfort of feeling clueless.
506 – No Practise, No Path: An Effortless Movement of Being
“No matter what, it keeps seeping in.” A conversation showing the endless, transformative ways our being naturally flows into our selves.
“My sole purpose is to be, in life, what we are after we’ve died. Through openness and softness of heart and core-splitting honesty at any personal cost, I live as that while actualizing the same in others I meet. I am available as a resource for anyone who recognizes and values this way of being.”
– John de Ruiter
