Q: I lived on a mountain, which I loved, and they’ve put in microwave towers. I’ve had heart attacks and strokes. I’ve been in hospital with all those symptoms and met the pain and shock running through my brain. I’ve been in this wonderful state of beingness and surrendered to dying from a stroke, but I realized I was a ‘doing’ in it. There’s a gap there, somehow, and when I open to the fear it can still gobble me up. Everyone else seems unaffected.
John: When you’re being what you really are, anything that happens to your person, to your body, to your self, to your heart, truly opens you. The freedom that’s realized in that is that it takes so little to hurt your self or your body, and that any of that makes what you really are thrive.
Anything that happens to something of yours, such as your life, your self, your body, if you’re being what you really are in the midst of that, you thrive. There is no happening of any kind that can separate you from that.
Q: I can be in that radiance of beingness, yet it can still knock me to the ground. Are you saying I’m not in the depth of being where it would have no effect?
John: It doesn’t mean that you’re not in the depth of what you really are. It means that you’re simply not being what you really are. That makes fear a gift to you.
Q: Yes.
John: It tells you that you’re not believing what you know the truth of. You’re not being what you know; you’re being something that’s subsequent to that. The real cause of the fear is that you’re separating.
Where there is love – your real beingness – there’s no fear. When you are quietly relaxed within you do not fear dying. You are warmly okay with dying, and that’s because you’re being what is deeper within than anything that can pass away. Death can’t touch that.
Your real continuity isn’t at all based on life and death. You’re free to be that in the midst of any environment, experience or circumstance.
There is no environment, there is no experience and there’s no circumstance that can separate you from what you really are. If you’re being separate, that’s because you have the power to be other than what you really are. Nothing can do that to you. If you’re being separate, you do it. And it’s only a story if you believe that it’s being done to you.
You love being in your heart, because there you are within the doorway to your being. When you are being in your heart your movement within is the same as your own being, and that movement comes up into your self. When you are being in your heart you easily experience your being.
Q: Is that the space where there is a gap, where I am making it a ‘doing’?
John: The gaps are there when your doing matters more to you than this.
Q: Yes, I understand that.
John: When this matters more to you than anything you can do, then just like what you see easily in a small child, you will do so much because you’re being this.
Q: Thank you, John.
