Q: My question’s about fear and fear on, like, a physiological level, intensely below the neck fear, and a sense that I have that it’s frequently blocking this that you referred to as accessing the heart or living from the heart.
John: Fear doesn’t block anything, and fear has nothing to do with you unless you give your power to something that you don’t really know the truth of. If you believe only what you know in your heart, fear isn’t possible. As you relate directly to what you know the truth of deeply in your heart, what there is is love and there, in what you really are, fear doesn’t exist. You experience the fear physiologically because it’s wired into your nervous system. Your nervous system represents how you feel in your patterned self. Your nervous system doesn’t tell you what you really are. Your nervous system gives you your physical relationship with your self. Your nervous system won’t tell you the truth. It does tell you the level at which you experience your self.
Everything that is yours – your body, your self, your nervous system – belongs to your being, but your being won’t come into your outward forms, it won’t come into your nervous system without you being it while you’re in your nervous system, while you’re in the experience of it. So when you experience fear in your body, right there, you be the same as your own being. That re-orientates first you as awareness to being what you really are, and the re-orientation then turns to your nervous system and your own nervous system, a little bit, becomes just like you.
As you sustain being what you really are in the midst of whatever self you have and whatever kind of nervous system you have, they both become, in time, just like you, just like what you’re being in it. You being in your heart and you being what you really are is process-free. Your self, your nervous system, your mind, your feelings, your emotions becoming just like you requires a process, a process that doesn’t open without you being what you really are in the midst of whatever self and life you have. In that way, your personal self and your nervous system become whatever you’re being in it, whether what you’re being is an illusion or you’re being what you really are. It can’t be learned; it can only be quietly responded to.
As soon as you are honest to what you most deeply know in your heart, you’re being it. When you’re being what you really are, regardless of whatever kind of self you have, you have only one kind of movement. That movement is love. What you really are has no other way of relating. If it isn’t natural, immediate and beautifully easy, you’re making it too difficult. The difficulty of it, as you can experience it, serves only to make your personal self important, so it gives you a sense of identity.
Q: Thank you.
522 – Awakening to the Vastness of You
“Look for more and you find less. Look for less and you’ll find more.” A classic teaching that unwraps this paradox, revealing how it’s through being less and less that we awaken to the vastness of what we really are.
521 – The Beingness of Deeper Knowledge
There’s a difference between the wish for information and understanding, and being receptive to living knowledge. Using an example from their conversation, John explains that difference.
519 – Your Awakening Gives to Existence
Could simply trusting in existence be the key to happiness and peace? Using an analogy from nature, John explains how easy it is draw a false conclusion about the source of awakening and realization.
518 – The Intelligence of Love
“Love, and you’ll know its intelligence.” A journey into the multilevelled body of love that lies beyond our comfort zone. John explains the role of the energy centres in allowing this love to have presence in the self.
517 – What is the Source of the Light, Within?
“Nothing that appears to be comes from what appears to be.” This conversation travels deep into the unseen, revealing the shifts required to know the source of the light, within.
516 – Meeting in Meaning
A dialogue that begins with a question about the format of John’s meetings evolves into a detailed teaching about the true nature of meaning and why searching for it won’t ultimately work.
“My sole purpose is to be, in life, what we are after we’ve died. Through openness and softness of heart and core-splitting honesty at any personal cost, I live as that while actualizing the same in others I meet. I am available as a resource for anyone who recognizes and values this way of being.”
– John de Ruiter
