Q: I’ve found some real clarity around how I’ve used my intelligence to create this philosophy of working on my self and growing and healing. I see that there’s goodness in that and I also see how I’ve used it to be less than what I am. I choose to use experiences and relationships to minimize discomfort. I’m seeing emptiness in everything.
John: Emptiness is a wonderful bed for you to lie down in and to enter realization. As awareness, lying down in emptiness has you realizing the presence of all of the collectibles in your heart and realizing that on a heart level you don’t need them.
Development of every kind, spiritual development, inner development, the development of your self, compresses emptiness unless you do as awareness return to your first home – knowledge, being at home within knowing. Later, every kind of development is then according to knowledge if the fine line most worth realizing is being okay as is in emptiness. What the emptiness provides for you in realization is that you are in need of nothing.
When you are in your heart in need of nothing, you are open to knowing. Knowing doesn’t provide anything but knowledge. If that’s enough then you have everything.
Q: Where does movement come from out of that lying down in emptiness? I make myself a victim of this pain that I’m with. It becomes a wallowing instead of an acceptance. So if I find my bed in that emptiness I’m still in my life. So how do I stay in bed and still live?
John: Warmly having need of nothing enables you in your living to not be taking anything. That leaves you as delicateness of being in the midst of your living, delicateness of being in the midst of emptiness, in the midst of pain. When pain is quietly of no use to you, then pain on its own opens up the deep in you. With delicateness of being there are no hooks in your descent. When there are no hooks in your descent there’s no distraction from realization.
You’ll be realizing as awareness what you’re knowing. The realization turns into seeing. You’ll be seeing everything as you’ve not seen it before, seeing without having need of anything. It lets the seeing permeate everything. You’re rooted as awareness in knowledge. Your movement is that of your own being, and you have your self through which to express the goodness of it without reward even in the midst of reward.
In warmly having need of nothing, you will have as awareness everything according to knowledge, every level of development according to knowledge. All of the terms are according to knowledge. You’ll be living in your heart, in your self, and in your life, liking and loving believing knowledge. Of that comes all of your beingness, all of your doing, all of your reason for being and doing.
Everything matters, and all that matters is wonderfully dependent on the knowing within that defines it. As soon as need defines what matters then in your heart you’re lost. To lie down in the emptiness of that, you’re home in realizing, realizing what you know the truth of, realizing what you know the truth of in your heart, whether that gives you understanding or not.
Listen to John de Ruiter Audio Podcast 31 – Delicateness of Being in the Midst of Emptiness or visit the John de Ruiter YouTube Channel