The questioner describes having been awakened to a deep energy of pure love within, and yet suffering still continues. John explains that the suffering is in the self, while the love is not. The love is your home. Your self suffers because it is not complete. You are complete. You don’t need to suffer. That puts your self in your care. Then, every difficulty that you have in your self will have you coming more deeply from the love that you’ve awakened to, within.