Q: I found deep in my self deep love and I know, deep out of my body and deep out of my soul that I’m connected with a very deep energy: the pure essence of love. The confusion, which hurts so much, is that at the same time I found all the patterns, all the projections coming out of my personality, all the thinking. It gives so much suffering and so much fear and I know that’s covering all the pureness of the feeling and of the fact of being connected with that love. It’s a deep wish and a deep longing to be connected with it and to trust it. There’s the force, the power, where truth is.
John: Then love it more than your self. Trust it more than your self.
The suffering is in your self. It isn’t in the love that you’ve awakened to and that you’re knowing. Don’t confuse the two and don’t try to connect the two. If you try to connect the two, you’ll be doing that for your self. What you do for your self, you’re not doing for the love that you’re knowing. Your home isn’t in your self. Your home is in the love that you’re knowing.
The suffering that is in your self and the confusion that is in your self don’t need to end. The only thing that needs to end is you belonging to your self. The love that you’re knowing you also know is of greater value than your self. You belong to the greater value. You don’t belong to the lesser value. You don’t belong to your self. As soon as you are fundamentally clear about that, the unnecessary suffering ends and the suffering that is not in your control continues while you are at home: while you’re at home within, while you’re at home in the love within.
There isn’t anything wrong with your self suffering. You don’t need to suffer. What is not complete, suffers. Your self needs to suffer because your self is not complete. You are complete. You don’t need to suffer.
You’re not able to make everything complete. You are complete when you are at home, within. That addresses what matters first and what matters most. Then the incompleteness that is in your self is able to matter from within the perspective of what is already complete. That puts your self in your care.
When you are suffering because your self suffers, then your self is no longer in your care and you are making your self responsible for your care. Your self isn’t able to take care of you. You are able to take care of your self, and you are able to raise your self. Whether your self suffers little or much, your self is in your care and you’re able to raise your self. You are able to guide your self by being what is already complete, and being that in the midst of your incomplete self. Your self will learn from you. Whatever example you are within your self, your self will become.
You know the love, within, so you know what to be in the midst of the self you have: not being the love so that your self won’t suffer, but being the love in the midst of your self because it is the love that you’re knowing that you know to be. There isn’t anything else that you know to be. You don’t know to be your self. You know to be the love, within.
You’re not confused. You know the love, within. When you believe the love, you’re clear. When you believe your self, you’re confused. Believe the love that you know, within, despite the kind of self you have and then in the midst of the kind of self you have.
This doesn’t need to work for your self. Being the love that you know, within, works for the love that you know, within. You need no more. As soon as you’re needing more, you won’t be the love, within. When you are not being the love within, then, like your self, you are incomplete and you lack; you lack the love, within.
You know the love within, and you love relating to the love within, so fundamentally and first you don’t have a problem. If that’s okay with you, then you have it. Then you’re complete. If that is not enough for you, then you will have to suffer like your self suffers.
Love doesn’t suffer. Love loves. If, for you, the love within is enough, then you have no lack. When you have no lack, then any kind of self you might have is, for you, not a liability.
Q: I can see this. I can feel this connection and feel this knowledge deep in me.
John: Then you know how to raise your self. This isn’t going to be easy on your self. This is going to be true for your self because it’s true for you. Your self will change, not because it needs to. Your self will change because you’re being clear in your self. Every difficulty that you have in your self will have you coming more deeply from the love that you’ve awakened to, within.