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John de Ruiter Podcast 230

John de Ruiter Podcast 230

Sweetly Indebted to Difficulty

When: April 16, 2015 @ 9:30pm
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“Difficulty sends you to your resources …” John explains the evolutionary opportunity of this life and why, when we die, we’ll be indebted to the difficulties encountered.
“If you’re truth-oriented and you’re in difficulty, you turn to the truth within. It’s law.”
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Sweetly Indebted to Difficulty

Q: You once said that when you die you’re indebted to the difficulty, and it’s really stayed with me.

John: If, if you’ve been what you’ve known in your heart. If you’ve lived in your heart, after you’ve died you’ll know a sweet indebtedness to all of the difficulty you had, because when you’re in difficulty and you stay in your heart, that brings out the depth of your heart.

Q: And one, one of the thoughts that I had was that, when you talk about when you’re dead, as if you actually know what it is to be dead, and then I thought, is that because in some way, because you are oneness, that you’ve completely embodied your being in your physicality – that in a sense there’s already the experience of death, but somehow you’re still in a body.

John: Yes.

Q: Ok, and that’s why you can talk about ‘when you die’ with a complete knowing of what you’re talking about.

John: It is what you’ve said, that I’ve already died – not physically died, but gone through what dying is – many times over, which is what has given me a dual citizenship, so I have direct access to reality that isn’t limited to being in this life, so I come and go through both sides, so to speak, seamlessly and fluently.

Q: So the indebtedness would be in the depth of the heart, which would still be what you would experience when you die? The deepest part of the heart.

John: I’ve evolved, as awareness, because I’ve lived being one with what I know in the midst of my self while being in the midst of my self, or while being in my self. It’s only within my self that I can even comprehend difficulty. Deeper than my self, difficulty doesn’t exist. Openness and softness cannot comprehend difficulty. It comprehends only openness and softness. Being openness and softness within my self enables me to comprehend difficulty in my self, while still being that openness and softness which does not comprehend any kind of difficulty. So what that brings out, being that within my self, opens up a depth of what it is that I am one with, that opens up because of the difficulty.

The more difficulty that I’m in, the more that I naturally, as awareness, draw from deeper resources, because deeper resources are required for awareness to be within the self while being one with its own being. If you were to be one with what you know in your heart, without any kind of difficulty, which is what naturally occurs when you, when you lie down to go to sleep, your day passes away, your past, your future passes away, your person, your self passes away and then you’re just quieted in your heart. You won’t easily be realizing a depth of your own being because you don’t need to. The resources available in your being aren’t needed, but when you are in great difficulty in your self, for you to be openness and softness of heart you’ll be naturally drawing from resources within that match the depth of difficulty. So if you’ve remained one with what you know in your heart and you’ve lived that way through your life, then you’ve been evolving as awareness in a way that you realize after you’ve died that you are indebted to all of the difficulty that you’ve been in. If you wouldn’t be one with what you know you wouldn’t be indebted to the difficulty because there was no benefit to being in the difficulty because you were not one with what you knew while you were in difficulty.

The opportunity that exists in being in life is dependent on you being one with what you know, you being one with your own being while you are in life. If that oneness isn’t there, then after you’ve died you will realize the immense opportunity that was overlooked and lost because while you were in your life you were not one with what you knew, you weren’t living in your heart and you weren’t one with your own being. You just spent your awareness on your self and on your life. If you move through life being separate from your own heart and from your being, the opportunity all the way through your life is squandered.

The real benefit of being in this life is being at one with what you know in your heart, unconditionally, in the midst of all of your life. Then for you to live, life requires of you that you draw from your resources. When you’re one with what you know, your only real resources are not your self; your real resources are the resources of your own being.

When you’re separate from your being and you’re in difficulty, difficulty points you to your self. Difficulty points you to your past and to your future so it puts you into thinking, thinking about your past, feeling your past, thinking about your future and projecting your feelings into the future. So then you live with dread and with hope. If you’re one with what you know in your heart and you’re in difficulty in your self, that difficulty points you to what you’re already in. It points you to your own being, so the greater the difficulty the greater the depth of your own being that you’re pointed to.

Difficulty sends you to your resources, so whatever you’re coming from, that’s the region of resources that you’ll go to. If you’re self-oriented and you’re in difficulty, you turn to your self. If you’re truth oriented and you’re in difficulty, you turn to the truth within. It’s law. Shift your orientation as awareness from your self to what you know in your heart and you’ve just shifted what your real resources are in difficulty.

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