590 – Can I Return to My Awakening Experience?
One profound experience of a different level of consciousness had a profound impact on this person. How did it happen and can it be experienced again?
Q: I know that I have a big ego. Will you create some space in me?
John: Is there more to you than your ego? Do you know if there is more to you than your ego? Are you aware of there being anything deeper in you than your ego?
Q: Yes.
John: Then there is more space in you. That that is deeper in you than your ego, is it of more profound value than your ego?
Q: Yes.
John: Then there is much more space in you than your ego. What will you now do with such knowledge?
Q: Meditate more. Be more aware of when the ego is to the fore and I’m not in my being.
John: As an experience, the experience of you is most predominant in your ego. You can sit in that, occupying the space you know as your ego, and in being that space you can yield to that in you that is more profound and of greater value. That is you opening your self to the more that there is of your self.
You will still, as such, have an ego, but it will be an ego held in perspective by you. You’ll have a responsive ego. You’ll have a profoundly willing ego, an ego that always includes and fits into what it knows within is more, an ego that doesn’t take space but an ego that offers space.
As such, you’ll have a most lovely ego: one that knows its place in the whole of you; one that is as sensitive to every other part of you as it is to itself; an ego that lives in profound fairness to all of the knowledge that it has; an ego that is meaning-sensitive instead of an ego that is predominantly self-sensitive; an ego that is true to all meaning everywhere, within and without; an ego whose pulse is that of oneness; an ego whose form is that of one of many, of oneness; each of your forms then, on account of you, being meaningfully cooperative with the others; every part of you, including your ego, being enlivened by what you are being; every part of you, including your ego, having on account of you, most delicate form all moving as meaning.
On account of your beingness as awareness, every part of you yields to the other by what it knows to yield in, each part of you standing by the other in what it knows to stand in. You would exist and move, on account of your own beingness as awareness, as a symphony. There would be no part of you, on account of your beingness, that holds power against another part.
Q: Thank you.
John: Your ego would then be your face of beingness reflecting all meaning within. You would have the transparent face, within, of knowing – knowing meaning. Your face within would be the face of meaning, all on account of your beingness as awareness within every part of you. Your having eyes would then mean that meaning sees and, by that, meaning speaks; meaning in all forms of you, moving as one awareness.
Q: Thank you, John.
590 – Can I Return to My Awakening Experience?
One profound experience of a different level of consciousness had a profound impact on this person. How did it happen and can it be experienced again?
589 – Starting Over: Living Your Awakening Before You Die
After many years on a spiritual path, this person is no longer interested in more teachings. Can there really be nothing to do? John describes what stands in the way of living our awakening, and the value of doing that before we die.
588 – The Realization of a Rare Destiny
The longing to be free of any level of the self is at the heart of this conversation. What changes our destiny and gives entrance to what we really are?
587 – The Space of Decision
“Stumble forwards rather than falling back.” Do you move by new knowledge or old decisions? John addresses what happens in the space of decision.
586 – What is Free Will?
“There is free will after death, never before.” John explains this rather startling statement and reveals why only love has such freedom.
585 – Beyond Your Understood Powers: Your Real Life, Within
“Who am I?” In this dialogue, John is responding to a person who really wants his spiritual search to be over but doesn’t know how that can happen.
“My sole purpose is to be, in life, what we are after we’ve died. Through openness and softness of heart and core-splitting honesty at any personal cost, I live as that while actualizing the same in others I meet. I am available as a resource for anyone who recognizes and values this way of being.”
– John de Ruiter
Cookie | Duration | Description |
---|---|---|
cookielawinfo-checkbox-advertisement | 1 year | Set by the GDPR Cookie Consent plugin, this cookie is used to record the user consent for the cookies in the "Advertisement" category . |
cookielawinfo-checkbox-analytics | 11 months | This cookie is set by GDPR Cookie Consent plugin. The cookie is used to store the user consent for the cookies in the category "Analytics". |
cookielawinfo-checkbox-functional | 11 months | The cookie is set by GDPR cookie consent to record the user consent for the cookies in the category "Functional". |
cookielawinfo-checkbox-necessary | 11 months | This cookie is set by GDPR Cookie Consent plugin. The cookies is used to store the user consent for the cookies in the category "Necessary". |
cookielawinfo-checkbox-others | 11 months | This cookie is set by GDPR Cookie Consent plugin. The cookie is used to store the user consent for the cookies in the category "Other. |
cookielawinfo-checkbox-performance | 11 months | This cookie is set by GDPR Cookie Consent plugin. The cookie is used to store the user consent for the cookies in the category "Performance". |
elementor | never | This cookie is used by the website's WordPress theme. It allows the website owner to implement or change the website's content in real-time. |
PHPSESSID | session | This cookie is native to PHP applications. The cookie is used to store and identify a users' unique session ID for the purpose of managing user session on the website. The cookie is a session cookies and is deleted when all the browser windows are closed. |
viewed_cookie_policy | 11 months | The cookie is set by the GDPR Cookie Consent plugin and is used to store whether or not user has consented to the use of cookies. It does not store any personal data. |
Cookie | Duration | Description |
---|---|---|
locale | 1 month | This cookie is used to store the language preference of a user allowing the website to content relevant to the preferred language. |
Cookie | Duration | Description |
---|---|---|
_ga | 2 years | The _ga cookie, installed by Google Analytics, calculates visitor, session and campaign data and also keeps track of site usage for the site's analytics report. The cookie stores information anonymously and assigns a randomly generated number to recognize unique visitors. |
_gid | 1 day | Installed by Google Analytics, _gid cookie stores information on how visitors use a website, while also creating an analytics report of the website's performance. Some of the data that are collected include the number of visitors, their source, and the pages they visit anonymously. |
CONSENT | 16 years 2 months 18 days 8 hours | YouTube sets this cookie via embedded youtube-videos and registers anonymous statistical data. |
yt.innertube::requests | never | This cookie, set by YouTube, registers a unique ID to store data on what videos from YouTube the user has seen. |
Cookie | Duration | Description |
---|---|---|
IDE | 1 year 24 days | Google DoubleClick IDE cookies are used to store information about how the user uses the website to present them with relevant ads and according to the user profile. |
NID | 6 months | NID cookie, set by Google, is used for advertising purposes; to limit the number of times the user sees an ad, to mute unwanted ads, and to measure the effectiveness of ads. |
test_cookie | 15 minutes | The test_cookie is set by doubleclick.net and is used to determine if the user's browser supports cookies. |
VISITOR_INFO1_LIVE | 5 months 27 days | A cookie set by YouTube to measure bandwidth that determines whether the user gets the new or old player interface. |
YSC | session | YSC cookie is set by Youtube and is used to track the views of embedded videos on Youtube pages. |
yt-remote-connected-devices | never | YouTube sets this cookie to store the video preferences of the user using embedded YouTube video. |
yt-remote-device-id | never | YouTube sets this cookie to store the video preferences of the user using embedded YouTube video. |
yt.innertube::nextId | never | This cookie, set by YouTube, registers a unique ID to store data on what videos from YouTube the user has seen. |