Q: What is the calling and what is a right expression of it?
John: Why do you bring up the calling? What is it to you?
Q: Something that I awakened to, and from that point on nothing else seems real and true.
John: When you are known, known from outside of your reality – outside of your reality as you experience and perceive it in your self, and also outside of what you have known in your heart – when you are known from a level that has no connection to this world, to your self, to anything of reality as you’ve have perceived it, that level awakens in you. The resonance of that level awakened in you pulls on you. It draws you, and as it does, your connection to every other level of meaning is immediately less than what calls you.
Everything that you are capable of relating to from that point on is re-contextualized. You have awakened to a context that you know is beyond all else. Meaning in every other level, every other level of yours, is immediately completely dependent on this other level, within, that you’ve awakened to.
Q: It seems that from that point on, when I made the choice, now I have no choice.
John: You have real choice. Your real choice is that you respond. It’s a level of response in you that has nothing to do with how you are accustomed to making choice as a self. From the perspective of your self your response is choiceless. There is nothing else for you. The meaning of everything is dependent on what you’ve awakened to. It’s dependent on what you know you are called to. You can no longer really be in anything without you coming from this.
That brings this that you know you are called to into everything. You realize that this is the meaning of everything that’s yours. This is the meaning of any direction that you can move in, and when you come from this, this fills everything of yours. It fills everything that you do. You coming from this reformats everything of yours, enabling what is yours to come into this just as you do, to turn into this just as you do.
As you pointedly respond to the calling, to the depth of its awakening in you, as you’re absorbed into it and you enter it, what you come into, what you see and how you see is, in its essence, entirely alien to your self, but it is everything you know the truth of. It’s alien to your self, and for you it’s deep home. That also gives you an idea of what is going to take place in your self and in your life as you continue to come from this. Your self and your life will become as this is. What is yours – your self and your life – becomes form of this.
The calling comes from the deepest level of your being, a level of your being that is so far removed from what your self is like that there’s no relationship between the two. As you respond to that deepest level of your being, as you respond to what you know calls you, and your belonging shifts from your self to this, this level of you, this deepest level of your own being comes into your existence and has existence. The deepest level of your being actualizes within the level and the space of your self, transforming it, making it usable for direct expression.
Q: What is the way to empower this movement?
John: By you warmly letting this that you’ve awakened to, that calls you, come into your heart, come into your self, come into your life, and let it warmly interfere with anything. Everything of yours is up for change, not on any terms of what you like or don’t like in your self, but on the terms of what you know the truth of within the calling.
It’s like letting in the deepest, most powerful truth virus. When you let it in, you know that there isn’t anything that it won’t affect. Letting it in accomplishes total change. Its influence and its movement are beyond cosmic. It puts you in what is deeper than cosmic response. It puts you directly into what is the balance of everything.
Q: It is the stream of balance of everything?
John: It is the stream that is the perfect balance to everything.
Q: It seems like it is getting stuck in a comfort zone from time to time. How is it possible to continue the flow of the stream?
John: Relate to the calling and you are immediately out of your comfort zone and you are in response. When you are in response to it, it begins to electromagnetically alter all of your forms, bringing your forms into a completely different frequency, enabling all of your forms on all of your levels to move as one, all moved by the deepest level of your being. As you shift to the calling, this level awakened and moving in you shifts everything of yours until everything is one and moves as one.
There is only one real choice: you, awareness, from within everything that you are, being in entire response, not just to what you know but to what you know in this. You become a different order. You come from and move as a different order. You function as a different order.
It is what everything in this world, it is what everyone in everything in this world, is secretly looking for and from within its own experience must resist. Response to this reconstitutes everything. Let into all of this whole world, this would remaster this whole world. It wouldn’t even be this world anymore.
Q: What is the right expression of it?
John: One that your self as it presently is can’t comprehend. All that you have of it is what you know in this. You don’t comprehend what you know in the calling. All you know is the depth of it, its certainty, the truth of it, and that you belong in it, you belong to it. After you’ve entered it, you begin to comprehend it.
You enter it because you know it. You enter because you know. You don’t have anything else by which you enter. As you enter, your way of understanding completely changes. You understand because of what you’ve already become. Understanding is then not based on information in the way that you relate to understanding in your self. What you are, in what you are coming from, understands. You gain understanding because of moving in it. As your movement from within this changes what is yours, you understand. Anything in you not changed by this isn’t able to understand.
597 – The Person, the Self and the Being: Identifying the Many Levels of You (Part 1)
Person, self, being … what’s the difference and what is real? Using different analogies, John explains how our different levels connect and shares the code to being what we really are.
596 – Beyond Sadness and Pain: Happy Without a Reason
John reveals the source of the deep well of sadness and pain this person carries, and shares how she can reconnect with her original happiness.
595 – When a Crumb of Truth in Your Heart is Your Home
John responds to a spiritual dilemma: a desperate longing for realization, coupled with the fear of nothingness that seems to come with it.
594 – Fully Present in Your Body, Fully Present in Your Heart
Closing down to the experience of vulnerability can mean dissociating from the body. John shares a simple way to become more present however uncomfortable we feel.
593 – Honest to the Way of Your Heart
An exploration of how honesty and an open, soft heart are connected, taking us ever deeper into the unseen roots we could remain in forever.
592 – Beyond Self-Acceptance: The Way of Deep, Inner Healing
An experience of misplaced anger has raised the question of what real healing is. John takes us beyond simple self-acceptance, deep into the source of the finest healing of all.
“My sole purpose is to be, in life, what we are after we’ve died. Through openness and softness of heart and core-splitting honesty at any personal cost, I live as that while actualizing the same in others I meet. I am available as a resource for anyone who recognizes and values this way of being.”
– John de Ruiter
