Q: You entered a dream I had a couple of months ago, and since that night there’s been an internal, deep process with glimpses of a much bigger reality, glimpses lasting seconds, of a place beyond birth and death. I sense there’s much bigger than that and it’s causing a lot of ripples in my personal life, of course. So I’d like to ask your response to that.

John: There is much more to reality than what appears. What we are used to is what we perceive of reality through our selves. Generally, our reality is confined to our selves. It’s confined to our senses and how we relate through feeling and thinking to our own senses.

There are deeper levels within, deeper levels than what our self is. When you are in your person, you know that there’s deeper, within. There is more within than what your person is. When you’re being honest to your self while you’re in your person, you realize two different levels. What you are in your self isn’t necessarily the same as what you are in your person. Your person is what people see. Your self, within, is what you see. The more honest you are to your self, the more you see. Deeper within than what your self is, there is your heart. You don’t need your person for you to be in your self, you don’t need your person for you to be in your own interior, and you don’t need your self for you to be in your heart.

In this way, your heart matters more than your self and your self matters more than your person. Knowing, within, is in your heart. The knowing in your heart is of greater value than your heart. When you are gentled and quieted in your heart, you know that there is more, within. Even though you may not have an understanding of what that more is, you know there’s more.

Your knowing of the more sends you, within, to the deeper levels that are all deeper than your self and your heart. They are all the deeper levels of your own being. You have levels in your self and in your heart because you have deeper levels, within…deeper than your self and your heart. As you become familiar with the levels in your self and in your heart, the knowledge of the differences sends you deeper within. With the recognition of each level, there is the deeper impulse in your heart because of the knowing in your heart that there’s more.

When you are in your person, it isn’t difficult to realize that you cannot use your person for you to access your self. Your person is dependent on your self. For you to access your self, you need to be the same as your self is without using your person, so then you know how to shift between your person and your self. For you to be in your heart, you can’t use your person or your self. For you to drop into your heart, you’re dropping out of your person, out of your self, into what matters more than both.

When you’re in your heart, you can’t use your heart to enter what you know the truth of that is in your heart. As awareness, you recognize the deeper that is in your heart. When you identify that and you enter that deeper knowledge, you’re not being your heart. You’re being that deeper knowledge.

The movement between the levels that you’re familiar with establishes the understanding, the intuitive understanding that you cannot use what follows of a level to enter the level within that precedes it. This intuitive knowledge also sends you deeper within than what your heart is. All of this intuitive knowledge directs you into the levels of your being. When you try to use your self to enter your own being, you enter more of your self. What you use for your entrance is what you’re entering.

As awareness, you’re able to be in the different levels without the use of other levels. You as awareness move through the different levels. For you to enter your own being, as awareness, you need to be the same as your own being. The entrance to your being is in your heart. The door to your being is in your heart. When you are open and soft in your heart, you are, as awareness, of the same beingness that your own being is of. That same beingness is what gives you your entrance.

When you want to enter your own being, that is the beingness of want and of need. It’s the not same beingness as that of your own being, so then in needing to enter your own being and wanting to, you won’t be able to. Want and need is of what you’re used to in your self.

When you enter your own being through the openness and softness in your heart, you enter the unusual. It’s unusual to your experience in your self. In entering your being, there are delicacies beyond what you have experienced in your self, delicacies of being that completely melt you with even just a touch. The melting is what gives you entrance. The melting means that your identification is releasing and passing away, and you’re giving into what is lovelier than what you’re used to. It’s the response of awareness to the realities of its own being.

Within your own being there are streams, streams of profound goodness, streams of most profound nurture. As awareness, you enter these streams and you move in them by being the same as they are. With each response of awareness, you come into the knowledge of how oneness works. You enter what is lovelier, within, by being the same as that loveliness. It’s all beyond your self. It’s all deeper than your self.

There are different regions in your being, some deeper. The deeper the level in your being with its regions, the less form there is to your beingness. As you respond as awareness to its delicacies and fineness, you become the finer and the more delicate movement. You become what you enter. As you move further back in your being, the presence that you enter that is all really yours, becomes increasingly foreign. You enter meaning that is foreign to anything that you have known in your self.

As you move further back into your being by responding to what you’re knowing in it, wherever you are in your being, you know more. You know more than what you’re being. When you respond to the knowledge of more, you enter that more. You enter it by becoming it. You become it, as awareness.

As you move further back into your own being, what you are entering begins a little bit to not be of reality anymore, and you realize that reality is not made of reality. It’s made of what reality comes from – greater reality being the source of reality. As you move even a little bit into some of the closer regions of greater reality, the laws change. They are no longer the laws of reality, and not the laws of reality in what you’ve experienced before in your own being.

As you move into greater reality within your being, the way of relating changes and the laws change. You can’t use what you were familiar with in what you’ve known in your being before. Every movement deeper and further back establishes that you cannot use what you’re used to to enter the new of what you’re knowing. You can’t collect. You can’t establish familiarity to go deeper and further. The deeper and the further isn’t familiar…and it is what you know.

Your movement in the deep is all by you, as awareness, knowing. Your oneness is awareness being what it knows. As awareness, you can know, within, what is more. That doesn’t mean that you’re responding to what you’re knowing and entering that more. As you respond to being one with what you know, you enter what you know, and you enter a further and a greater oneness.

As you enter greater reality, there are completely different realms, realms that you know the truth of as you move deeper within and further within, with these realms in your own knowing being completely foreign and alien to the reality that you know in your self. As alien as they are, to you as awareness it is home. The deeper within that you move and the further within that you move, the more you realize what you really are, with that ‘more’ being altogether different from what you’re used to in your self.

You’re not meant, as awareness, to form into your self just because of what you experience in your self. Experiences and the varied experiences in your self reveal the wonderful flexibility in your self, how easily your self changes, and with varying experiences your self is able to move differently. That becomes highly attractive, making being in your self a distraction. Its wonderfulness is very catchy. All of that wonderfulness belongs to what you are in all of the deeper levels, within…the deeper levels of your own being…and all the regions within each level.

As you move into the deeper, being and becoming what you’re knowing and then being that in your self that isn’t yet like that, your self flexes and changes and develops and grows, and you begin to realize the purpose of your self. The purpose of your self is the form-making. It is your capacity, within all of the deeper levels within, to come into form. They come into form in your self, enabling you to be functional in your self, in this world, being all that you really are within the deeper levels.

Being the more within, in your self, changes the form of your self. Your self becomes different. The more you move into your self from within the deeper, the more that you realize that your self is a self of change. It isn’t meant to stay the same. It isn’t meant to be confined by your experiences in it. It’s meant to become all of the ‘more’ in the deeper. Then you realize the purpose of your self, and that purpose isn’t fulfilled in keeping your self as it has been. It must, by you, in the all of what you really are, gloriously change. Once you begin to enter the deeper levels, within, and its many regions, your self is going to completely change.

As you move into the deep, you move through your own subconsciousness, which activates it. As it becomes activated, it moves. When it moves, you experience it in your self. The experience of that in your self is unpleasant. It disturbs the comfort in your self. It brings up with it everything that you have ever turned away from in your self. Anything that you’ve said ‘no’ to within, anything that you have avoided, anything that you’ve seen and didn’t want to look at is all put down into your subconsciousness. As you move through it, it all comes back up again. It becomes a part of your self.

Settling through all of that by being open and soft in your heart and being that manner of heart in your self, in your disturbed self, settles the patterning that’s in it. It answers what is brought up from your subconsciousness and through this manner of beingness you integrate the whole of your self. You integrate your own patterns by being in the midst of your patterns what is of your own being.

All of this integration is preparation. It all has real and deep meaning. It’s preparation, it’s foundation-making for you to not just enter your own being, entering its levels and its regions, but it’s preparation for you to sustain what you’ve entered, being all that you enter, being it in your self. Without the preparation you will continue to favour the patterning in your self. You’ll favour the experiences in your self. You’ll favour their distractions. The integration of all costs you only all that you’re familiar with in your self, enabling you to be the all, within, in your self and in your living.

The deeper abilities that are awakened with your own entrance into the deeper levels are contrary to what the patterning is like in your self. The goodness of this is that the patterning in your self must be integrated by your own openness and softness of heart, for you to sustain being what you are as a being in your self.

All of this entrance and newness, all of this more, and more, and more, within, in its movement in you as awareness, enables your evolution as awareness. It enables you to develop and evolve as awareness. That evolution, coming into all that you really are, and in form, with form, is what you were born for. This is your multi-levelled opportunity. The distractions in your self are without end, as is the opportunity, within, without end.

In the unintegrated self, you naturally relate to needing and getting, having and keeping. In your heart you relate to meeting. You relate to being with. You relate to the opening of love. In your being, you relate to communion, the delicacies and the varying streams of communion: the movement of oneness.