Q: I was listening to your interview on the internet on Conscious TV where you were saying, it’s like, to be peace when there’s no peace, to be okay when there’s no okayness. I’d like to know more about that.

John: By believing your self you have made your self more real than what’s deeper than your self. You know that there is deeper within than what your self is. The okayness doesn’t have to do with your self. Fundamental okayness within, letting your heart be quieted and stilled, has you relating to what is deeper within than what your self is. That restedness in your heart, despite what kind of self you have, despite the condition of your self, takes you into a fundamental beingness. That okayness of heart that has nothing to do with your self has you as awareness relating to your own beingness. That most tender okayness within that isn’t dependent on your self or what you’re experiencing or on your life is what you’re able to relate to.

Q: In certain difficult situations it’s okay but then something underneath is not okay. I have to be out from there. Difficulty is a gift, but sometimes it comes a little too much.

John: It’s never too much. Being gentled and quieted in your heart taking you into an okayness of being that has nothing to do with your self doesn’t mean that you have to convince your self of something. You don’t need to convince your self that something is okay when you’re knowing from within your self that something is not okay.

The okayness of being doesn’t have to do with your self. It’s of a deeper level within than what your self is of. The okayness isn’t to convince your self of something; it is about your relating to a completely different level within than what has to do with your self.

That doesn’t mean that there is then nothing to deal with in your self, nothing to deal with of your difficulties. Okayness of being isn’t meant to erase anything in your self. Okayness of being is what you’re able to come from. In coming from a deeper level within, in coming from what’s deeper than your self, you’re able to have perspective in your self, enabling you from a deeper place to deal with things that you know are not okay in your self or outside of your self. Such okayness isn’t meant to fix your self. It’s meant to have you coming from deeper within than what your difficulty is.

Without coming from a base of being in dealing with something in your self, you’ll be believing the experience of your self. In coming from deeper okayness within, a deeper level within than what your self is, you are able to deal with things in your self without becoming lost in your self. When you become lost in your self you become fearful; fearful because you’re not having a base of being. Your self isn’t the base for you to be coming from. As soon as you know that there’s something deeper within than what your self is, you need to be coming from that – coming from that in the midst of your self.

Q: Fear is my weakness. Yeah. I have lots of fear.

John: When you are gentled and quieted in your heart, temporarily letting go of the issues in your self, there won’t be any fear for you to be relating to. The real knowledge that you have isn’t in your self; it’s in your heart. When you’re gentled and quieted in your heart, you come into your own knowledge. As soon as you are knowing the truth within…the most basic truth that has to do with your own beingness, not a truth that has to do with your self…everything rests.

Such base of being gives you the clarity of heart, a different kind of heart, a heart that is of your own being, instead of a heart that is of your self. When your heart is not of your self but of your own being, you’ll have the clarity to deal with the difficulties in your self, to deal with the difficulties outside of your self. When you separate from the knowing that is in your heart…a knowing that doesn’t have to do with your self but does have to do with your own beingness… then your self is too much with all of its difficulties. The ‘too much’ doesn’t really come from your self. It comes from your being separated from your own being.

When you are distracted in your heart to believe your self, you won’t be coming from your own being, so you won’t have the depth of footing within to be able to deal clearly with your self. You’ll be losing security in your self; not having enough of a self to be able to deal with your kind of self. The resource within to deal with your self and to deal with your life doesn’t come from your self. It comes from your being deeper within than what your self is.

That has you settled within your heart. Your living knowledge isn’t in your self; it’s in your heart. When you’re taking your self to heart you won’t be taking the deeper living knowledge to heart.

Q: I’d just like to be home.

John: Then you need to believe what you know the truth of in your heart instead of believing your self. Your self doesn’t have what you’re looking for. You have what you’re looking for, and it’s in your heart. It’s not in your heart as an experience. It’s in your heart as tender knowledge. It is a tiny little bit of most tender knowing. When that tiniest little bit that you know the truth of in your heart that first doesn’t have anything to do with your self…when you’re coming from that tiniest little bit…you’ll have the clarity to be seated in your self differently. That enables you to provide for your self what you’re needing in your self, instead of your looking for your self to provide for you. You are not a dependant of your self. Your self is your dependant.

Being as awareness gentled and quieted in your heart isn’t hiding from your self. It isn’t hiding from your difficulties. It isn’t turning away from your self. It isn’t denying your self. It is just simply your believing the tiniest little bit that you know the truth of in your heart; believing that first, instead of believing the experience of your self first.

Your self, your person, and the life you have remain there for you to be dealing with, but for you to be really dealing with your self, your person and the life you have, you need to coming from what is deeper within than what your life is, than what your person is and what your self is. From within the experience of your self it won’t seem like very much, but from what you know the truth of in your heart you know that the restedness of being is worth more than your self. Without your coming from that, being that, you won’t be able to take care of your self. You won’t really be able to take care of your person in the life you have.

This time spent magnifies and uplifts the tiny little bit within that you know the truth of in your heart. It returns you to heart understanding based on what you always did know the truth of. It has you resonating, within, with what is of your own being, instead of resonating with the self you have.

You won’t be able to sustain the experience of this because you don’t have this kind of self yet. For you to have this kind of self you need to be what this is that you’re knowing in your own heart; being this in the midst of the kind of self you have, in the midst of its difficulties. In being this and coming from this in the midst of your self you’ll be re-patterning your self. The re-patterning of your self doesn’t come easily. It comes with much difficulty. The ease of being that you’re knowing the truth of in your heart comes with no process, no difficulty. Applying this…this beingness in your heart…applying it in your self is where all of the difficulty is. There is no escape from such difficulty.

Residing in this beingness isn’t an escape from difficulty. It is this beingness within that enables you as awareness in your self to move through your difficulties in a way that doesn’t come from your self. The resource in the midst of difficulty isn’t your self. It is this, this that is of the tiny little bit within that requires no effort for you to be.

It does require, as awareness, your belief. If you’re not believing what you’re knowing…what you’re knowing the truth of in your heart…you’ll be necessarily believing the experience that you have in your self. You’ll be believing what your self provides for you. That makes your self more than you.

You are more than your self. For you to be that more that you always knew the truth of, within, you cannot be believing first your self. You need to be believing first the tiniest little bit within that you know the truth of, and then you need to be what that is in the midst of your self, in the midst of your difficulties.

You’ll be dealing with all of the pressures that you have thought within your self that you’re not able to deal with. Then the pressures that you have concluded are too much are not, because from within the tiniest little bit you are more than what your self is. You are more than what the pressures are. It is from there that you have the tiniest little bit of clarity in your heart. That clarity is enough for you to be able to deal with your self.

There isn’t enough in your self for you to able to deal with your self. There’s lack in your self. There’s lack in any self. For you to be able to really deal with your self you need to be coming from that within that has no lack. There is no lack in the tiniest little bit within that you know the truth of in your heart. From there you’re complete.

Every resource within that’s deeper than your self is within that tiniest little bit. It is the resource of knowledge; not knowledge in your mind, not knowledge in your self, but real living knowledge in your heart. When you live by that in the midst of your self you’ll be gaining heart understanding of your self. You’ll be gaining heart understanding of your difficulties.

This beautiful development within doesn’t take place first in your self where you would like it to be. It takes place first in your heart. What takes place in your heart of beingness, within, then takes place delicately within your self, making you from within the tiniest little bit fully responsible for your self. That puts love in control.

There’s always more than enough in the tiniest little bit within for you to be able to come from and to be in your self in a way that you do know the truth of. In being that, in coming from that, you’ll be addressing your self but you won’t be using your self to do so. You’ll be using what you are, what you are in what is deeper than your self.

In coming from such tiniest little bit within and sustaining coming from that, and sustaining believing the tiniest little bit within at any personal cost, you will overcome your self. You will overcome the pressures that are in your self. You’ll be able to overcome because you’re being more than what your self is and what the pressures are.
You’re not without resources but those resources are not in your self. They are in your own being and they are in you.

Believe your own being and believe you. Your self will follow.