Q: My question is how can I keep on growing my awareness, that it be there continuously in my life?
John: Concerning what you’re knowing, within, be all in. Be all in without the use of anything. As soon as you use something to be all in, that part that is in use is not in. You cannot use your person to be your self. You cannot use anything of your self for you to be what is deeper, within, than what your self is. The only way to fully and completely go deeper, within, is, concerning your knowledge of the truth of that, for you as awareness to be all in.
If there is to you as awareness a hundred of you, if 99 of you are really in what you’re knowing the truth of that is all deeper than your self, and if there is just one of you that believes and is interested in the use of your mind to help the other 99 of you to enter what is deeper within than what thinking is, then you have no access. If just for one of you the game of awakening and going within is interesting, then you can have no access.
Anything that you have awakened to in the past was to your credit in the past and is no longer to your credit. It doesn’t matter how much you have awakened if you are not now awakening.
Q: I did ask one of my teachers a similar question of what holds me back and he said maybe you don’t want. How does that fit into what you say which more or less means you don’t have to want; you shouldn’t want.
John: If you shouldn’t, you will. There are many things that can stand in the way and, if you need it to be, they’ll be endless. If you are getting things out of the way, finding them and moving them out of the way, then it will be to that kind of work … horror upon horrors to find the last one … because then the work is over.
If you’re not reaching what you most long for, then you’ll make what you most long for most elusive. Your first ability is to be the deepest of what you know. If you’re not reaching that, then don’t use any of your other abilities to be it.
You’re not meant to take your whole life to reach this. You’re meant to build with your whole life upon this. As long as you are not reaching this, reaching this first, then you are in some way using your abilities in waste of your life. What you are most deeply longing for is not only what you, as awareness, completely belong to, but your life also.
You can only really get to it now. If you get to it tomorrow, you will find more of yesterday. Your future is completely determined by your past unless there is in you, as awareness, a profound shift now.
549 – Soul Food: Difficulty and Pressure in a Polarized World
“The food for your soul while you’re in a body is difficulty and pressure.” John explains why this is so, why the soul is so difficult to see until after we die, and what our soul’s evolution is dependent on.
548 – Right Side Up: No Longer Taking Your Stress to Heart
The responsibilities that come with working in the world can feel stressful. Is there a way of moving more lightly in it all? John explains how it’s all dependent on what we belong to, within.
547 – Profound Honesty: Being Okay When You Don’t Feel Okay
Shame, fear, anger … is it really possible to be okay in any circumstance, even when feeling attacked by others? There is transformative potential, and John explains.
546 – Less and Even Less: Why Weakness is Your Way Home, Within
Contrary to worldly conditioning, weakness isn’t something to conceal or avoid; it’s actually key to embodying a full spectrum of awareness. John describes the journey, and what it requires.
545 – From Fighting to Flourishing: A New Way Forward with Your Teenager
For this mother, who is struggling in relation to her teenage daughter, what begins as a hard lesson to learn becomes a beautiful crossroads that will deeply change them both.
544 – Evolving as Pure Awareness in War and Peace
An epic conversation that reveals what we’re here for, how to help people suffering the effects of war, what can change the planet, and why it’s up to us.
“My sole purpose is to be, in life, what we are after we’ve died. Through openness and softness of heart and core-splitting honesty at any personal cost, I live as that while actualizing the same in others I meet. I am available as a resource for anyone who recognizes and values this way of being.”
– John de Ruiter
