Excerpt from a dialogue with John de Ruiter on January 25, 2015
Q: I’m wondering whether we’re using the opportunity of this life. What are the actual consequences of physical death?
John: Don’t wait for that! The consequence of waiting is that you will have forfeited your real, magnificent opportunity to evolve as awareness.
You’re in this body. You’re born in this body and you have two different sets of form. You have the forms of your own being; these forms are true to everything of what you really are; they’re your perfect real forms. Then you also have the forms of your self. They are inherited forms, and are not like what you really are. Part of what makes up that form is what your ancestors didn’t deal with and what this world hasn’t dealt with. What you really are comes in amongst the form of the self, and you’re able to be either of them.
When you’re being true to your own being, you will be just like your own being in the midst of your self that is not like your being, which causes a lot of pain. If that pain isn’t your focus, then you will just quietly be what you really are in the midst of the self that isn’t at all like you. In that way you evolve, because the only resources you’ll be using to be in your self are not those of your self, but the resources of your own being. That puts you, as awareness, into a real stretch. It puts you, as awareness, into your own evolution.
As you remain in this, you evolve. That is what you were born for, not to have a comfortable life. You’re not born to have a life that serves your self. You were born to be the forms of what you really are in the midst of the forms of yours that are not like that.
If you live this life, siding with your self, being the forms of your self at the expense of the forms of your own being, you forfeit this entire unseen opportunity. It’s not that after you die, you’ll suffer because of that. It means that after you die, you’ve gone through all of this real, concrete opportunity, and you’ve spent it on nothing.
Q: What happens when we really use this opportunity?
John: What you are as awareness will be much more, after you’ve died. You can also evolve to that extent without coming into a body, but, from a linear perspective, so it can be comprehended, it would take you thousands and thousands of years for you to evolve as awareness without a body. When you come into this body, the opportunity is as immense as all of the possibilities for distraction. The distractions are endless. You can have any of them and as much as you like, and they’ll all serve only the conditioning in your self.
And it’s possible to come into this body as awareness, in your present evolution and, after your body has died, be worse off than when you came in because of what you’ve done to what you are. After you’ve died, the result of what you’ve done with your life remains. And you’ll continue.
John: What you are continues. It continues as perfect love.
Q: Just your real forms?
John: Yes. And if you’ve squandered your opportunity, you will be measurably less. After you’ve died, you will still be perfect love, but your mobility won’t be the same. The more you evolve as awareness, the greater your mobility.
Nothing bad will happen to you after you die if you live squandering your opportunity. What will happen is you will have forfeited real good.
Q: Can you say more about mobility?
John: Your real mobility within this dense form is unseen. You think your real ability in this dense form is all seen. You use what you think and feel and your physical experience to tell you what is real and true, even though, when you’re quieted in your heart, you know that’s not really it.
Q: So what, then, is the nature of the true mobility?
John: What gives you a real idea of that is the difference between someone who’s completely in their heart, being all they really know, but has a lower level of intelligence. What that one really is, is not at all less than someone of the same beingness, the same residence in the heart, but with a greater brain. The one with the greater brain is love with more mobility and capacity in this world. But the one is not more love than the other – it just has more mobility. When you evolve as awareness, you increase your mobility. You don’t increase your perfect love.
Q: Thank you.