Q: I came to the chair to talk to you about core-splitting honesty. Do you see a tendency to run away from certain points?
John: You do.
Q: Yes. Can you help me?
John: In a way that is most usual in this world, your honesty is mixed. Some of your honesty is to what you want in your self, which empowers what isn’t integrated of your will. It’s what enables you in your use of power to just do what you want regardless of what you know. When you go that way, all of your sensitivity, which belongs to what you know, is given to what you want.
Some of your honesty also goes to what you think, not to what you know in what you think, but to what you think despite what you know. It’s what enables you, in your pursuit of what you want, to use your intellect. When you use your intellect for what you want, you’ll have power to rationalize and to justify what you want, making what you want more reasonable than what you know.
Some of your honesty goes to what you feel, not to what you know in what you feel, but to what you feel in your self despite what you know in your heart, enabling you to give credence to what you experience in your self. You’ll give feeling to what you experience in your self in a way that takes you further away and makes you separate in your self from what you know in your heart.
Some of your honesty goes to what you know in your heart, and the honesty in that enables you to know in what you think, using your intellect for what you know in your heart, and using feeling for what you know in your heart and using the power of your will for what you know in your heart, which makes you in your self willing to move and do what you know in your heart.
Within this mixture of honesty, you’re able to shuffle the power back and forth to suit the openness and softness in your heart or to suit any hardening and closing in your heart. For you as awareness to not be core-splittingly honest but to simply be completely honest to what you know in your heart, this entire mixture of honesty is over. All of the honesty goes to what you know in your heart. All of the flow of power in all of your power centres is given in service to what you know in your heart.
The relationship you’ve had with your self is over. It’s completely finished. Your relationship with your self is set new: that your self belongs with all of its powers to what you know in your heart. Your relationship with your self is a relationship of the purity of knowing that is in your heart. Your relationship with your self is by purity of heart. Your self is then openly a self of change.
Core-splitting honesty goes far beyond this honesty. It’s far beyond being completely honest, with all of your powers, to what you know in your heart. The honesty takes you just beyond every level, within, that you have awakened to, that you’ve ever awakened to. How you’ve moved in your being when you were a baby, core-splitting honesty takes you just past that point. It’s your ultimate reset. It’s not just your self being reset to what you know the truth of in your heart; it’s your self being reset to what is just beyond the deepest you’ve ever awakened to or moved in.
That’s not just the end of your relationship with your self; that’s the end of your whole world. That’s the end of reality as you’ve known it in your self. The deeper levels opened within are free to move in the deeper levels in your self, altering your entire experience of your self.
It is what you first are, given permission to have all of your self; what you first are being your self, interacting with the deeper levels of reality outside of your self. Your perception of reality, within and outside of your self, opens to the level of what you first are, including all of the levels subsequent to that, giving you living access to these levels of reality outside of your self. The realized capacity is communion without limits.
To embody what is everything warmly costs you everything. The exchange is fair and beautiful.