Q: I have been exploring what you meant by underlying belief structures, and even though I can’t really see much about it, I know how much I’m affected by it.

John: What makes your person different from others has to do with your underlying beliefs. Your person is the form of your beliefs.

Q: What is an underlying belief structure?

John: Your subconsciousness. When you’re not being aware from within what you know the truth of in your heart, if you’re not coming from being awareness from within the tiny little bit, then it is your subconsciousness that determines the movement of your self, and it is the movement of your self that determines your person. A fundamental shift in awareness has you coming from what is different than your own subconsciousness.

To come from what is different from your subconsciousness also releases your subconsciousness, as it is, into your self, bringing about an experience in your self of profound upheaval. Your underlying beliefs will be set free to come into the realm of your experience. It isn’t a pleasant experience. It can have you feeling lost and confused.
That is when it matters most to be what you are actually knowing the truth of in your heart, bringing your belief as awareness directly to knowing, freeing your belief from being caught within a structure.

When belief is freed from within a structure, you will experience that structure for what it is. The structure becomes enlivened in your self. It can give you the feeling in your self and the sense in your self…the experience in your self…that you’re going backwards, that you are not evolving, that you are completely stuck in your self, and instead of believing the truth presented by your experience of your self, you’ll be believing, as awareness, the truth presented only by your own knowing, within…not informed by what you’re experiencing. You’re informed by what precedes what you’re experiencing in the midst of what you’re experiencing.

For that to take place, for you, as awareness, you’ll be entering your own darkness without being moved by your experience in your self of that darkness. Confusion in your self and disturbance in your self will have you, as awareness, not relating to the confusion or to the disturbance. Confusion and disturbance will render you, as awareness, within your self, still. Instead of making a step by way of disturbance and confusion you will simply, within your self, not step.

In that way, belief as awareness no longer feeds your experience of your self, undoing the underlying beliefs that move and govern and determine your self. When you do, as awareness, no longer have through your belief the support of your self, then you are purely vulnerable in all of your heart. You won’t be using your self or the experience of your self to protect you in your heart anymore.

It is from within pure vulnerability in all of your heart that belief, as awareness, moves only by what you actually know the truth of in your heart, belief that is no longer conditioned by your experience of your self. Your subconsciousness emerges in your self without your moving as awareness to protect your heart from that.

Within all of your interior you’ll have no relating to protection. The structures of your self being activated won’t move you. You’ll be moved within your self only by what you actually know the truth of in your heart.