The questioner feels connected to her heart when she is being silent, but when she speaks she feels disconnected. How to speak from the heart? John explains how we are able to open our hearts in the midst of our life, regardless of the experience in our selves. We are able to not close even when there’s pain or discomfort. If we are okay with the cost of that, our selves will change, grow, develop, and purify.
Both questioners in these dialogues are describing having powerful opening experiences after which they also experience pressure and difficulty. John explains that experiences are there to show us what we know.
– The importance of your experiences is what you know in them.
– When you have presence in unseen levels of you, you grow into the more of you.
– Pressure and difficulty are good, they that strengthen your root system.
– When you let your deeper levels come up your heart will come out and you will come in to life.
– New seeing: the beginning of a new perspective
– The opening of your thinking and your mind
– Thinking differently: a much higher level of thought
Being awakened is like being pregnant. When you are being your awakening, you develop a body of being that is like a baby you are able to hold and care for. When the baby matters more to you than all else, there is deep peace. In these dialogues, John explains how we can live that deep peace in life, a life no longer formed by good or bad things happening to us but by what we are being in it.
A young man describes having experienced deep, penetrating insights and wonderful awakenings. But when the experience passes he is back to his small hearted small minded self. How can he sustain these experiences?
In this podcast the questioner speaks of his sense of readiness to connect more deeply and enter more of his being. John’s response takes us from a whisper of what’s deeper, beyond the perspective of our familiar selves, into unseen levels of love. After turning over control to our being, letting “incomprehensible being overtake your mind”, we come back to our everyday selves with a renewed awareness of the eternal nature of real connection.
In this dialogue the questioner speaks of having a sense of what is deeper inside him, and a readiness to connect more deeply. John’s response takes us from a whisper of what’s deeper, beyond the perspective of the familiar self, and into unseen levels of love. When we allow our being to be ‘in control’, we come back to our everyday selves with a renewed awareness of the eternal nature of real connection.
This dialogue begins with the questioner asking “being a nobody” and transforms into a conversation about how to let go of spiritual ways to allow room for real transformation. Just as candida comes from having too much sugar, John guides the speaker to let go of his “spiritual candida” until he can handle more. Topics discussed:
• It’s good to rest in seeing, without needing understanding or interpretation.
• No need to think about it or talk about it, make nothing of it.
• Being relaxed and not applying things too quickly.
• Have no more spiritual sugar. You have spiritual candida.
• What others can handle, you can’t handle, so you need to eliminate all of it until the candida’s gone.
• Your relationship with what you know and what you see is feeding your self.
• For some time – don’t speak about what you know and what you see.
• Don’t speak of the deep, don’t be “”into”” what you know and what you see… and therefore into saying it.
• Your relationship with sugar/with your self – is very tricky.
• Don’t take the fruits – leave them behind you… it’s an illusion…
“There is no embodiment of a level deeper, without moving through its dark night. There is no price too high for a caterpillar to pay in becoming a butterfly.”
“My sole purpose is to be, in life, what we are after we’ve died. Through openness and softness of heart and core-splitting honesty at any personal cost, I live as that while actualizing the same in others I meet. I am available as a resource for anyone who recognizes and values this way of being.”
– John de Ruiter
