596 – Beyond Sadness and Pain: Happy Without a Reason
John reveals the source of the deep well of sadness and pain this person carries, and shares how she can reconnect with her original happiness.
Q: What is the meaning “to die before you die, consciously?” I would like you to share with me this energy.
John: What it means for you to die before you die is for you to be what you are after you’ve died, while you live: for you to let what you are, after you’ve died, have your body, your self, your personality, your mind, your emotions, your feeling, your skills, your work.
Q: And it’s happening to me now?
John: Is it?
Q: It feels like it. Maybe it’s a self-trance or something.
John: (shakes head: no) If it’s a self-trance, try to do it on your own. It won’t work. You can’t come into this through your self, because this isn’t your self. This is a little bit of what you are after you’ve died.
Q: Sometimes I feel that in that state the mind puts me into a trick that I’m selfish because I more and more lose interest in the world, in the things that I wanted before, ideas that I love. In the moment I sit here some thoughts jump: “if you are going to stay like this, how are you going to pay the bills?” Like, tricky! But I still listen to that which is here.
John: You let this pay the bills because you let this do all of your work. You let this have your life, have your self, have your mind. You let this have everything. When this has everything, this will pay your bills.
Q: I feel that there are many times the world tries to catch me down and tell me: “Come, come, you cannot stay like this” in many, many tricks. The more I’m deep, it can be noise of the mother, the noise of the most close friend – everything.
John: You get caught in it all, but you also know better. You know better because regardless of anything in this world, you know. And you don’t know because of this world. You don’t know because of your self. You know because of you. What you are, after you’ve died, loves having everything that’s yours. And it loves paying your bills. It has no trouble with anything.
For you to be enfolded by you, by this pure you, is you dying before you’ve died, is you being what you are after you’ve died, while you live. It’s what you’re here for. It doesn’t even make a difference if you cry or not because you know. Then, if you cry, you cry because you know: the opening of your self because there you are, being you in your self: wondrous, amazing, real, and true. You are plugging into you, and it’s extraordinary for you.
Q: Thank you. Now I have the fear that I’m going to stay like this forever!
John: You’ll be like this forever, for sure, after you’ve died. And, if you like, while you live.
Q: It’s okay to live like this?
John: Now you have died before you’ve died. Now, live before you die.
596 – Beyond Sadness and Pain: Happy Without a Reason
John reveals the source of the deep well of sadness and pain this person carries, and shares how she can reconnect with her original happiness.
595 – When a Crumb of Truth in Your Heart is Your Home
John responds to a spiritual dilemma: a desperate longing for realization, coupled with the fear of nothingness that seems to come with it.
594 – Fully Present in Your Body, Fully Present in Your Heart
Closing down to the experience of vulnerability can mean dissociating from the body. John shares a simple way to become more present however uncomfortable we feel.
593 – Honest to the Way of Your Heart
An exploration of how honesty and an open, soft heart are connected, taking us ever deeper into the unseen roots we could remain in forever.
591 – The Truth About Compassion
When is compassion self-centred, when is it real, and how can we tell? An exploration of what it means to be truly compassionate.
590 – Can I Return to My Awakening Experience?
One profound experience of a different level of consciousness had a profound impact on this person. How did it happen and can it be experienced again?
“My sole purpose is to be, in life, what we are after we’ve died. Through openness and softness of heart and core-splitting honesty at any personal cost, I live as that while actualizing the same in others I meet. I am available as a resource for anyone who recognizes and values this way of being.”
– John de Ruiter
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