The questioner experienced an awakening but finds it difficult to stay in it because of stress and pain. John explains that this is because she is relating to her awakening from her self instead of relating directly without “keeping an eye” on her self. John speaks of the stream of what we know; when we merge with what we know in our heart we are in the stream. Then, instead of emotion and experience moving, it’s our heart that is moving, which is deeply transformative to our self. The awakening is newly found and the stress in the self dissolves.
