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Loving Knowing – Part 2

May 9, 2001

Q: I can't really ask a question or something, it is just a fear. There is so much fear inside me, of being alone and I can't really… John: When you fear being alone, that makes you lonely. When within, you let yourself completely relax into enjoying being utterly alone, without

As Awareness Relaxes it Rests in What it Knows

June 20, 2015

Q : About two weeks ago I shared with you that I felt higher frequency in my belly, and you said it was deeper willingness which hadn’t integrated in my self. Last week when I was walking in the park, I felt a similar frequency in my body and

You Are the Healer of Your Self and Your Person

April 10, 2012

Q: I’d like to know why I don’t have a flow in my finance, home and work. John: For you that isn’t going to come easily. For some, with a little added awareness, there’s a lot of result; for you it would require much awareness to have some result.

Knowing: the Universe of Your Own Experience

April 10, 2011

Q: Hi, John I’m just back from a Zen retreat. I was there sitting for five hours a day looking at a wall, questioning myself: ‘who am I?’ What I found was that I don’t know. I don’t know who is sitting here. I don’t know who is speaking,

The Tiny Little Bit of Truth in Your Heart

May 31, 2011

Q: Lately I’ve been confused about God. Is there only one God or several Gods? John: Despite anything that you’ve learned, despite the conditioning of your upbringing and your experiences, despite any of your reading, despite any of your perceptions, despite anything that you can seem to hold or

The Dexterity of Consciousness

August 5, 2011

Q: I cracked wide open today with a lot of flooding of emotion. I see clearly how self-indulgent it is to waver in that place of being in presence and being invited to go there completely but still playing in the mind and emotions. I consider myself a victim

Being More Open within, to Really Meet Without

October 14, 2011

Q: Hi, John. Ever since I was little, I never saw that, whatever my dad was doing, that he was wrong. I just loved him so much that, whatever he was doing, I was okay with that, and I didn’t take it personally. Then my little sister was born

Profound Sincerity Doesn’t Miss

April 9, 2011

Q: My awareness has been balancing on a thread. In the beginning, I was very occupied with not falling from the thread and balancing. Now I don’t really know where I am anymore. I was wondering if you could say something about that. John: Seemingly being in the dark and

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