Excerpt from a dialogue with John de Ruiter on February 21, 2015
Q: All my life I was brought up to have only one man in my life, and since my husband died I closed off from being a woman. Is it okay to close off my sexuality?
Q: But I’ve managed to live very well without it.
John: Not fully, because you’re living without it. Your sexuality must flourish. For your sexuality to flourish, that doesn’t mean you need to have sex, but you need to be present within the movement of your sexual energy, without you moving in that with either attraction or aversion.
The more deeply you’re present within the movement of your sexuality, without using your sexuality for yourself in attraction or aversion, the deeper the level of womaness you awaken to.
Q: I’m afraid of it.
John: Deeper within, you’re not afraid of it. In yourself you’re afraid of it, but in your heart there’s no fear at all.
When you go to sleep every night, give very delicate permission for your sexuality to move freely in your body. That doesn’t mean that you need to do something with that energy moving in your body, as a person, but it’s free to move in your body. Go to sleep every night giving that permission. It won’t open trouble. It will open your deeper womaness.